House of Wolves

Jack! Jack! Jack! Jack! Jack! Jack! Jack! Jack! Jack! Jack! Jack! Jack's still hereeeeeeee!

What do I do what do I do what do I do???!!

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kakko ii desu ne!

Somebody might be able to take me home...

*sigh* Jack was lying... I can't believe it, but...

But if I come home, I'll be able to see my real friends!! Yay!- but I can't forget my exam on Tuesday. I've got lots to learn. And I've gotta make my prom dress at some point... = /

...

Jack is baka again : /

I'm trying not to panic, really I am, but I STILL DON'T HAVE A PLACE TO STAY THIS WEEKEND!!!

*sobs* haaand huurrrttttssssss, nooo tiiiiiiiime, noooooo finnnnnisssssshhhhhhhh *whines*

Slipping out of tricky situations seems to be one of Jack's many areas of expertise. He's gone off somewhere with Tim, leaving me with no more closure than my eyelids swollen shut... baka!  >: (

I've got an exam in 15 minutes too, and I couldn't revise last night for crying over him. I don't know enough quotes... *sigh*. Gotta go, gotta cram, ganbarimashou!

As I predicted, I am being ignored. I told him he would and he denied it and now he's doing it again.

I just don't understand him. I can't believe that he would lie to me. I can't believe that he's a bastard. And anyway, I know he isn't. He's such a nice person. So what's wrong?

Embarassment?? That's just not like Jack.

Shame? More likely. Because he thinks he took advantage of me? Or because he's ashamed to have sunk so low again?

Do I wait for him to come and see me 'later', as he said, and just trust him? Or do I learn from previous experience and go to him? And do what?

I mean, he said that we're equal, but in this relationship we're so clearly not. He can come and see me and use me whenever he likes. Because I love him. I'm just another girl to him. Could I just settle down in his bed tonight and expect him not to kick me out?

Should I try it??! 

Daily routine- A rotina diária

Habit- O hábito/ costume

Every day- Cada dia/ Todas as dias

Everyday- Corrente/ Comum

Daily- Diário

Now and then-  De vez em quando

Usually- Normalmente

Always- Sempre

To wake up-

To get up-

To have a shower-

To get washed-

To brush one’s teeth-

To get dressed-

To have breakfast-

To write one’s diary-

To procrastinate-

To surf the web-

To read comics-

To bake cakes-

To nurse an 18 year young pumpkin king who's fallen off his bicycle-

To feast-

To retire to one’s chambers-

To listen to music-

To pine after pumpkin kings-

To draw, badly-

To god-worship-

To screw the insufficient offering into a ball-

To glance at the fallen pumpkin angel king in your bed-

To unzip the sleeping bag-

And cover the sleeping angel-

To curl up on the floor, foetal-like, and lie awake in the unbudging consciousness-

For hours-

To hear a stirring-

The leg-melting face-

A soft bed and a soft skeleton-

To hear huge heavy breaths-

Nervous breaths-

*hugs kawaii kabocha no tenshi* [cute pumpkin angel]-

To be encircled, slowly, in flighty arms-

*heart melts for sweet, uncertain angel*-

To hold s/o tightly-

To love-

To kiss-

Like vines, to intertwine-

To love with every drop of blood that gushes from one’s burst heart-

To gaze at s/o-

To watch s/o sleeping-

To cry-

To wish-

To wish, full-knowingly in vain-

To caress-

To rest one’s head on a strong shoulder-

To lie cheek-to-cheek with a god, fingers intertwining-

To sigh-

To see, far, far into one’s future, and glimpse nothing of this present bliss-

Perfect bliss, marred by ill-forebodings of impending rejection-

The morning bird-song, harbinger of intolerable solitude-

Soft, soft skin, and the bones flow beneath like branches. My heart quickens at the turned back; a silent peal of alarm rings inside me; soon, alone!! alas!...- A pele mole, mole, e os ossos correm em baixo como galhos. Meu coração apressa-se  por causa das costas voltadas; um repique silencioso do alarme badala dentro de me; logo, sola!! ojala!...

A new kind of exhaustion overcomes me with the closing of the door.- Uma tipo nova da exaustão me domina com o fechamento da porta.

But triumph also.- Mas também o triunfo.

Torrential Joy!!!- A Torrente da Alegria!!!

I made this list just now. Started off relevant. Somehow morphed into a summary of yesterday. Probably because I did want to tell Leo what happened with Jack last night. ^ ^ . Yup. I didn't dream it.

...

Shame he doesn't love me.

But at least he knows. That I love him. That I god-worship him.

Meh! He didn't like it. Muttered on about equality and how he isn't perfect (*awwww.. squeeze pumpkin x)*He's so clueless: 'not perfect',  lol ). Said self-degradation was bad. *sigh* My self-esteem is so much better today; so what if I think I'm inferior to him! It doesn't upset me *indignant tone*. I love that I adore him! ... well, on those rare occasions where he gives me the blessing of his presence. Like yesterday :). The rest of the time (most of the time), okay, it's pretty shitty. But hey, I'm emo. I thrive on extreme emotions. Spleen or ideal- anything's better than 'okay', 'alright', 'so-so'. Oh, also, I've figured out what my nine meals are (and had three today!):

1. Breakfast
2. Second breakfast
3. Elevenses
4. Luncheon
5. Afternoon tea
6. Picnic!
7. Dinner
8. Supper
9. Midnight snack/ feast (delete as appropriate) 

Rejoice! Rejoice! Rejoice and be exceeding glad! For great are your rewards in love.

Blessed, blessed are the poor in spirit, for theirs' is the kingdom of heaven.

Blessed are the meek, for they shall inherit the earth.

Blessed are they who mourn, for they shall be comforted.

Blessed are the merciful, for they shall receive mercy.

Blessed are the pure of heart, for they shall see god.

Truly, I am in heaven. All the world I want is mine. The pain of his absences has indeed been comforted, and mercy shewn me, for one night at least.

Truly: I have seen god. 

When you spend your whole life waiting for The One, what happens when you find him, and he could care less?

Show us something that makes you go "awwwwwwww."
Submitted by LittleWiseOne.

Chocolate milkshake